“Finding recipes isn’t difficult to do…what’s difficult to do is find the motivation to keep trying when you continue to mess up…when you feel like a failure of a woman. That feeling hurts and is hard to talk about. I personally find that a lot of women either act like they have it all together or they blatantly tell you they don’t care to even try. There aren’t many women admitting that they are trying and failing. 

My diaries give me an outlet to express my frustration in this journey. My diaries aren’t meant to be a compilation of polished recipes and proven gardening tips. They’re meant to act as tools that support me as I work to develop those recipes and tips. They’re meant to be filled with mistakes and lessons learned.

I probably have at least ten entries dedicated just to learning how to make spaghetti with meatballs. Each time I made it, I tweaked the recipe then recorded what I liked and disliked about it until I finally perfected it to my liking. Now, I just reference the entry where that perfected recipe is recorded.”